Went back to home, my province

I realized that during 5 days was like what i really wanted to do during 2 years

During almost three years , I've done that studying an English also . Studying a German

Also studying a programming also staff like that .

I always did that self-study like , an English study also like these thing

But right now , I realized that what I'm alive rign one right now .

Why did not realize it since now ?

The reason that would be concentrate on one thing that's why i couldn't have relaized it .

Remembering during five days ,also i realized that what my person is ,what about my personality has , what is the weakness , what's the positive ness , also , concretely when I'm in a depression , what do I do ? I realized many kind of thing

" Human have not flawless animal mammal ., human is a emotional animal i think

Today I did that I've studied an English by using a YouTube

But I almost watched the anime in a different language , more than 5 hours

Right now

I need to is to management my task ,

For instance , how many time did you do today like that

What did you get up , also go to bed ?